Motherf$%@#!!! your wrench just slipped, knuckles straight to the bolt sticking out from the motor mount.. yep, that’s gonna hurt awhile. A little blood starts to seep from the wound, you wipe it off on your oily shirt, and get back at it. You feel a little pain every time you go to squeeze the wrench, right where you smacked that bolt. It’s kinda funny, in 3 weeks you’ll almost like the pain, in 6 weeks just a memory..

5:31am 3/20/19: As you can tell from my blogs, I usually start my day between 4-5am. Recently, I decided it must be 4am, and let me tell you, it hurt. Its not just 4am that hit me, our little girl got sick, so we all lost tons of sleep. I persisted, any day I could I would wake up as close to 4am as I could, I’m a couple weeks into my 4am journey. You’ve probably noticed by now, that I never said i actually woke up at 4am, and theres reasoning, because i didnt. duh..

the real measure of how great one can become is solely based on discipline, sacrifice, and risk. you see the wrench has slipped on me many many times. You literally look at this bolt and think, yep, you’re gonna win, im gonna bust my hand up, but you do it anyway.. now why in the hell would you do that anyway? Because it has to get done. 4am kinda feels that way to me, it hit me, it hurt, i knew it would, but i had to do it anyway. I dont necessarily think 4am is a prerequisite for greatness, but for me personally i do. so here i am slowly disciplining myself to get closer and closer each and everyday. my wife once said strive for progress, not perfection, thats really been hitting home lately. you see perfection is near impossible, but progress is undeniable. my sacrifice in this journey is sleep, i would for the most part i get 4-6 good restful hours of sleep a night, i wasnt sure if i could sustain it, but i seem to be doing great, just staying away from unhealthy food whenever possible. the risk… this is one that could potentially have many repercussions.. on one end eventually the lack of sleep could get to me and i could crash, not sure how likely, but it could happen i guess. The big one, i risk never giving my family the life they deserve, the life my wife and i have given up so much of, for this dream of financial independence. Im not sure about you, but thats daunting.

the discipline needed to start your day at 4am is ridiculous, and i think maybe the reason motivational speakers speak to this. its not the act of waking up that gets you started on the right foot, its the discipline to actually do it. Just like the bruise on your knuckle.. this pain will subside, you still gotta get the bolt off. Its takes alot to get back on that bolt after a smack like that, but the car needs repaired. 4am means i get to hear the first rooster crow, the trickle of the rain. the train way off in the distance, etc. I didnt dwell in the negative of 4am, i relished in the beauties of it, I’ve often times spoke of the amount of work i get done so early, but for now, lets forget about that, i once said that i hoped everyone got to see the world wake up just once, to really see it wake up.. its alot like my daughter, get a slow start but quickly is in full bloom! if you dont get the sweet spot you’ve missed it all, not in a negative way, but we can all attest to the beautiful morning cuddles your baby gives, then they’re off to explore just like that! when the world wakes up, the rooster lets every one know its time, then give it an hour or 2 and you get the rest rays of sunshine, its almost like he lets everyone know its time to get ready and see the sunrise, its a beautiful thing really. you see the small sacrifice of sleep and i get this beautiful start to everyday.

thats all folks