Tag: automotive

Its the struggles that inspire

8.20.2019-3:56pm

There comes  a time in every build..when you cant decide if its even worth continuing. You hit some sort of bullshit snag. A fitting that’s nearly impossible to find. A pipe that’s supposed to bend the complete other direction, or worst of all.. youre all out of money.. its funny when that happens, you enter into a trance per say… you sit and stare at that scratch going down the driverside of your rear bumper.. admitting defeat.. kick at the kitty litter you poured on the oil spill earlier.. just staring… wondering “What the actual fuck did I get myself into?” Its at that time when you contemplate.. do I cut my losses. This piece of shit mustang is never gonna run anyway. And then… in a glimpse of what only can be described as fate.. I swear the car fucking talks to you.. and says.. don’t give up on me.. those of you who know.. know. It’s a weird feeling.. so you get the fuck up and pick up a wrench. And on your way to the front of the car.. you caress that scratch on the rear bumper.. and now the only thought going through your mind is… one day, you’re going to be perfect.

If you didnt already notice, this one is written a little differently, its actually now 6:39am on august 30. a full 10 days later.. its dark and rainy today. its absolutely stunning if i do say so myself. i started this blog 10 days ago. the first time ever on a business trip, and i tried to write on the plane. it lasted all of 10 minutes.. and my laptop was dead, ill charge it when i land. that didnt happen either, not until the next day at least. i was so determined to write.. that it never happened. here i am now at my desk trying to put myself in the same state of mind when i began this.

shit gets hard man.. life has a way of pushing you down, some of you may not know the feeling, but those of us who are short sure do.. the feeling when someone taller than you pushes youre head down.. and you do nothing but crumble, it uncomfortable and can be painful. Well thats life, any opportunity it gets its squishes you down. making you fell as if you are nothing. worth nothing. at some point though.. you get tired of it, you decide that you no longer are going to put up with that type of abuse. seems like im getting off track right? E-brake bitch.

mid slide

Business is hard… that time when you almost want to give up. it happens to all of us.. it seems to hard.. or that theres no way forward. over a year ago my brother and i began our project car.. our business.. we started off ambitious, knowing damn well anything was possible, and i cant speak for him, but i know often times.. shit got hard in my head, and i wanted to give up. but i didnt.. id just look at my brother and id say we got this, not knowing how. its the same way i built my car, i know i can do it, but i dont have the first clue how. but this story isnt to focus on the down side here..

on august 20th i went on my very first business trip. you know what i did? i went to vegas and picked up two trucks. yep, what a trip it was. i know what you’re thinking.. i went to vegas and partied, well duh. heres how my days went

8/20-4:00am- im up and shower

4:30am-packing, baby was asleep and didnt pack night before(self-sabatoge)

5:30am- wake up wife, and get ready

7:00am- at the office and get to work

9:00am- in the car headed to texas

12:30pm- get to texas, plane leaves in 2.5hrs. fuck its dfw.

1:00pm- get to airport

3:00pm- plane ascending, trying to write,computer is dead

5:oopm- plane lands in vegas time change -2hrs, waiting on uncle

6:30pm- get to my uncles, i just want to shower

7:00pm- here have this alcohol, and shot.

8:00pm- fuck its already 10pm in my head….

8/21/2019

1:30am- way too drunk, fucking uncle didnt even let us eat before drinks… fuck it.. ill sleep on outdoor patio set…. where the fuck are the bugs?

6:30am- uncle finds us, annouces hes leaving in 15 min. i wake up and get ready. this nigga is always late.

7:45am-leaving his house, headed to his business.

8:15am- meeting his team, and getting good look at running operation, apprecaiting streamlined systems.

9:20am- leaving business headed to jobsite to meet with and brainstorm with team members on the field.

11:00am- arrive to old shop. check out if trucks are worth buying. this shop is fucking tiny… wash trucks, finally freedom!!

1:30pm- we are starving uncle calls, wait 20 for me… why? fuck.

im OVER this. it was hectic… i got a total of maybe 15 hours of sleep between the days of 8/20 and 8/23 worst part… 1200 mile drive back with 2 WORK trucks..

by this time i was exhausted.. but i was so thankful… only 1 year after starting our business journey, i was in vegas buy work trucks to grow my business… i know at some points.. i felt like giving up, but man am i glad i didnt.. the lack of sleep, lack of coordination, but the wealth of vision i gained was intense… i never gave up on my mustang.. and it ran! god damnit did she run. i did eventually sell her, for the sake of a future. Our little project of a business is finally starting to pay off.. the vegas trip was awesome. but i left out an even more important detail…

remember on 8/20 when i woke up my wife at 5:30am? yea she doesnt do that. early mornings are my thing, but damnit baby, we gotta get to texas. thats right.. i took her and my little girl to texas.. no i wasnt there.. but they got to go somewhere newish because of the business trip.. they arrived on 8/20 the plane flew out moments after we arrived to our texas destination. i barely said goodbye.. but i wasnt going back to oklahoma… i left 2 very very important people in my life in texas..

but wait theres more!!

i was supposed to arrive to texas on 8/23 around 8pm. rough guess. the majority of my family was also supposed to arrive to texas on 8/23. and my older brother and i were able to make it happen for them. it cost us like $500 to mobilize 13 people. thats NOTHING!! but my family isnt rich.. never have been. we arrived on 8/24 at 3:36am… but damnit.. my favorite people in the whole world were there.. in texas.. a tiny little getaway for a very big family. we all had our people. and all was right…

kinds crazy im excited about that.. but its because we didnt give up when shit got hard.. didnt get scared when we entered the unknown.. or at least did it anyway.. its because of that.. that damnit… this business ran!! Im looking forward to what this world has to offer.

my favorite quote of all time.. one my older brother has started to believe in..

“You don’t lack resources, you lack resourcefulness.“- I dont care

How I lost my grip.

How did I pick this title? Well in the automotive world, when you start pushing the boundaries of what your vehicle can handle.. you run into the next problem in the chain, GRIP, you can produce all this power but without grip, one simply spins with all its power and actually get nowhere. Why i feel this title was appropriate is because in its whole entirety I’m a car guy, possibly relate more of my life to the automotive world than i should. AWESOME! so we got that out of the way. im a car guy with real life problems, and trying to find myself.

5:27am 3/6/19- this is the first excerpt of what will become many probably stupid blogs, the great thing is. this blog is for me, not you, but nonetheless i hope you find something in here that you can really resonate with and helps you move forward in life. I’m not a writer although ive always enjoyed it, im simply just good at doing physical work. It will probably bother many of how i write, if you have suggestions please do say so id love to improve. so anyway here i am, the wife and kid are asleep, this early is the only time i seem to really get to myself, life of a dad right? my name is Abel, im 24 and im lost. remember back to that first paragraph? well imagine im the car.. i feel as if im in my prime in how to grow a future for my family and i, but almost nomatter what i do i cant seem to get a grip and actually get anything done.. my father has said its because im constantly dreaming and that i need to focus on just one thing. the issue i feel i have is im running out of time, and im running out of motivation, everyone says having a kid you forget about your dreams… well i refuse to let that happen. yes i feel it getting harder and harder.. but even though i say i just need to push harder.. its much harder than i imagined.. not because i dont have a why, but more or less my why is more important than getting ahead. what is my why? my little girl, my wife, my family… my biggest fear? loosing my family while i try to build a better life for them.

i ended that last paragraph kinda rough huh? good, im sure most men that are doing everything they know how and missing out on countless hours with their family all feel the same way.. simple thought constantly in the back of their minds.. “this is all for you, i just hope you dont think it took too long.” so i guess after setting the stage for my hardest question i live with. ill tell you what im doing and why im struggling. as i said im 24 i have one beautiful daughter and an amazing wife, this woman pushes me beyond my limits everyday, in good ways. she believes i can achieve anything, and she gets my end goal.

RETIRE AT 35 WITH FINANCIAL FREEDOM

thats a crazy goal for a 24 year old. but i feel like i have no other choice, i dont want a lavish life, i just want to spend time doing what i want, when i want, with my family. My wife is crazy enough to believe that i can do this for us, thats why i love her!

so what am i doing. well a little about my past.. when i was 14 i started at this awesome vitamin store i was a simple employee, it was great, i stayed there until i was 22. by then i hated it and i was looking for something more from life, i decided it was time to grow. i left and started working outside in landscaping, that was a rough first year, but i loved every minute of it. but still.. i was searching for more, somehow the stars aligned and everything went south with that employment. luckily i had stashed away a little change. my older brother who also worked in the same company (my boss) had also lost his job and also had a little change saved. so what did we do? you guessed it, we started our own landscape business. Great! right? yep, it was magical, finally the more i had been searching for was here, i was building something, i wasnt working for someone, the problems started in our first winter.. things got tight of course they did its a seasonal business, then they got tighter.. i had to swallow my pride and move to my in-laws.. thats okay we thought, we can pay off debt(Debt: momma says thats the devil).. well here we are now.. 4 months in.. things got tighter of course.. weve paid off $200.. thats it.. but things seem to be getting worse… more power, no grip.. at this point i can feel the tensions in my family, my wife is tired of living here, im tired of living here, im tired of the debt, and im tired of getting nowhere. so what happens to your family when things get like this.. ill tell you… you tend to add more power.. get even less grip.. or as some people say, digging your grave deeper.. tensions are so high i am drunk three to four days a week. no problem right? wrong. that $15 4 times a week. $60 a week that could be going where? yep debt, but its hard.. when you cant get your mind right. i know its not an excuse. its up to no one but myself to make these changes. so here i am 24 business owner, father of 1, provider of 3, turning alcoholic…

Why is this happening i ask? im stronger than this.. i can create the life we desire.. i know i can, so what do i do? well that part im not sure, this was my first crack at a blog, i found the problem.. all power, no grip. i am starting this to help me get a clear head, maybe help my productivity, most of all im doing this as an outlet, trying to get these shit stresses of life out. im using this as a journal or record of who i so truly believe im supposed to be.. and how ill get there. one fight at a time.

thanks for reading, te agradesco mucho.