Its the 3rd of august… and its my birthday. its early and lately I’ve been slacking so today I finally splurged. I finally woke up, to write.. sounds kinda funny.. but in a weird type of way, I’ve been yearning to write for weeks. About what? I really don’t know, I just had to as they say, put pen to paper. (obviously not really as this is typed) I mentioned a second ago I’ve been slacking, and I have on many aspects of this endeavor. I haven’t published in forever. and I haven’t woken up on time in probably similar time. thats okay though, im not even upset about it. more or less im at peace with my slacking, because man.. have I been soaking up that family time!!
So why would I, on my birthday want to wake up early just to write. well I officially have only 10 years left. 10 years to financial independence, finally all the family times! but again im not upset nor am I going to even state I will start waking up this early again. which if im honest… I do miss it, theres a type of peace to it. its one of those you gotta try it to understand it type things. I also spoiled myself another way this morning… I put milk in my coffee! haha these little things I speak of honestly are amazing, I haven’t felt this great since my wedding night. Oh yea, I Married my best friend!! after a beautiful 6 years together, on our anniversary date, we finally tied the knot! long overdue and absolutely more perfect than anyone could have ever imagined! Im also kind of obsessed with my wedding ring. haha… although I’ve already scratched it up to hell, im a man, I work with my hands, I love everything it symbolizes and it looks great on that finger. as I say to my wife, id rather scratch it than take it off.
seriously though, I should put milk in my coffee more often, but I really do just like it black too. maybe today im just rambling but truthfully I don’t care, so anyway im here the morning essentially just releasing some stress, I’ve been looking for many outlets as of lately, its came to my attention that these little things that I splurge for, are the little things I truly enjoy doing. these things bring me peace and bring me a sense of resetting. its almost as if the things that I’ve neglected so long… are finally making their way back around.. im seeing old friends more, enjoying my family more, hell im working on cars again, man thats been really good for me. all the cuts and scratches on my hands and arms remind me I still got it. hell I completely derailed on the budget end and bought another project car (I havent touched it, opportunity knocked, and im polite). more or less in doing these things I see more of why I work so hard, its the extra effort put in now, that allows me the freedoms to slowly have time to spend with friends, family, writing, or even working on cars.
With realizing this, im thankful to finally start to see it full circle.. while I feel as I’ve lost some old friends, I’ve gained new ones, and the same goes for family. its not about what you have and don’t have, never will be, its about cherishing the very aspects of life, as they sit before you. I used to listen to older people talk about life this way, and other aspects of energy and fengshui I think? im starting to understand it , somehow I feel that once you start appreciating the now, your vision for the future becomes clearer, and the lessons from the past become altogether more important, I believe they call this maturity or some shit.
I guess thats pretty much it for today, no real sense of direction, no real plot or anything really. just rambling about the nothings of this lovely life.
im gonna do like a banana, and split.
Getting a Grip 